Ladies and Gentlemen it feels good it be home...ITs been a really long time since i have been on here. Well lets start off by saying that my summer is going good. Just Graduated from SLS which was a pain in my ass. For those of you that went last year you guys had it good. We slept in an airplane hanger for two weeks and Had to get up hella early for PT. I miss that life though. NOw that i am back here to a normal Civilization its a big difference. Well i leave on tuesday for London.. Me and renee are going there for 4 days for our anniversary cant wait to see all the cool things.  I had a lot of money while i was gone but i blew off like 400$ at the power zone and gave renee some money for herself. Well i gotta get back to work. HOpe everyone's summer is going good. Missed everyone.

People say that good things come in good time and patience. How long do you actually have to wait or even what or how will you know when it happens. The last two weeks have been a wake up call for me. I dont really know why but it has. I guess its showing me that life is just a one time board game that you have to experiece everything life can offer and if you dont well....that kinda sucks for you. Ive had so many mixed feelings the two weeks. Im so lost in myself and the only thing that i could want more right now is being relaxed and feel wanted. I have been under many major changes in the last year, the way i look, act around certain people, how i look school in a different way and i guess its all part of growing up. Losing people and than meeting new people but what if you knew someone was the right one for you. Of course you would have your differences but who doesnt. I dont know love is a funny thing and it has its way of overcoming you. Just getting your loved one to smile as you walk in the door would make somone's day ....at least mine. Some people spend their entire life looking for that special someone. One person cant have everything your looking for and if they do something is wrong with them because no one is perfect. Me for example i am more of a romantic, senstive and i have a sense of humor kind of person. I dont take life to seriously. ITs to short too. But some people cant stand who i am. So many things are running through my head. Depressed isnt the right way to explain my emotion right now and i am afraid if i keep writing itll be a book by the time i get finished. Happy Monday everyone. 

(I am so sick i love songs so tired of tears so done with wishing you were still here)